Tuesday, September 11, 2018
2 weeks in
Ok week one was a culture shock and I failed my first 2 quizzes like a 30 and a 60 failed so needless to say I've been a complete wreck ever since. I have yet to find a study group although I do have a pretty close click of friends all of whom are very nice. Me and Brittney probably have the most in common she has 3 boys we are the only ones of the 7 of us who have kids and who are married. Everyone that I have gotten to know in my class are very nice and willing to help in any way they can. My first exam is next week and I'm freaking out about it and so is everyone else I know. right now I have to say that the material isn't hard it's a lot of teaching and learning and evidence based practice stuff so it's that intimidating however I feel like there is a lot of common sense stuff and I think if i saw it I should know it but so I haven't been study the way I probably should and that's also kind of freaking me out. I guess I'm just going to have to see how it goes and try my hardest to get through this with out working myself up into a crazy person.
Thursday, August 2, 2018
Thought from a month out
I have been basically freaking out about school since the moment I received my acceptance letter and before that I was freaking out waiting for my acceptance letter so all in all I've freaking out for about 6 months I don't know how much longer I can do this lol. All I can think of is failing and going through all of this for nothing and if I do pass then I'm going to be freaking out about passing my NCLEX and after that I'm going to be freaking out about finding a job lol. Once I get a job I'm sure I'll freak out about doing a good job or killing someone. I think life is just a bunch of freaking out with some moments of relaxation, mine is usually when I'm sleeping, followed by more freaking out. I don't know what to expect from school I guess, not really knowing how much work it's going to be and then on top of that having kids and a husband and a house plus having to work as well just adds up.
I wonder if I'm freaking out for nothing I mean plenty of people have gone through nursing school with as much on their plate as me right? Are other people in my class freaking out to I'm sure they are right? I'm just going to try to enjoy my freedom while it lasts I guess. I'm pretty sure I have everything done that needs to be done. All my continuing ed stuff is done My uniforms are pressed and hanging I have my shoes. I'm still working on buying books, My cousins wife just finished the program and she is suppose to be dropping off her books to me, of course they're old editions but I'm going to try to make it work for now because I'm broke as a joke and barley hanging on at this point.
I'm starting school August 27th my Husband goes to Fort Drum in NY for the whole second week of school so that should be interesting and then in January he deploying for 3 months so more fun coming my way. I'm very seasoned at holding down the fort while my husband is away so that is really no big but when am I am going to have time to study while I'm holding down said fort I'm not sure but I just have to women up and get it done I guess.
I'm hopping that there is someone in my class that is going through the same thing as me and we can kind of lean on each other for support a single 20 something with no kids isn't going to understand what I'm going through.
I hope that I can handle all the pressure that school is going to bring on me I mean the job I'm trying to go for is a pretty stressful job so I should be able to handle it right?
I wonder if I'm freaking out for nothing I mean plenty of people have gone through nursing school with as much on their plate as me right? Are other people in my class freaking out to I'm sure they are right? I'm just going to try to enjoy my freedom while it lasts I guess. I'm pretty sure I have everything done that needs to be done. All my continuing ed stuff is done My uniforms are pressed and hanging I have my shoes. I'm still working on buying books, My cousins wife just finished the program and she is suppose to be dropping off her books to me, of course they're old editions but I'm going to try to make it work for now because I'm broke as a joke and barley hanging on at this point.
I'm starting school August 27th my Husband goes to Fort Drum in NY for the whole second week of school so that should be interesting and then in January he deploying for 3 months so more fun coming my way. I'm very seasoned at holding down the fort while my husband is away so that is really no big but when am I am going to have time to study while I'm holding down said fort I'm not sure but I just have to women up and get it done I guess.
I'm hopping that there is someone in my class that is going through the same thing as me and we can kind of lean on each other for support a single 20 something with no kids isn't going to understand what I'm going through.
I hope that I can handle all the pressure that school is going to bring on me I mean the job I'm trying to go for is a pretty stressful job so I should be able to handle it right?
Monday, July 2, 2018
You need more of my money?
I never thought in a million years that at the age of 33 I would still be in school but here I am getting ready to start a pain staking new journey of becoming a nurse. I was under the impression that all I was going to have to pay for was tuition and books.... boy was a wrong.
Let start off by saying tuition is going to cost about 2500 dollars a semester which I guess isn't horrible considering, I'm on a payment plan thats 355 dollars a month. The program requires 12 books that range in price from 20ish dollars to about 130 dollars so I'd say about 1500 dollars for books, I expected that to be honest. What they don't tell you is all the shit they make you buy before you even start the program.... like lots of extra crap.
First day out of the first orientation you have to buy your uniforms from a certain place and you need a lab coat that also must be purchased where you get a uniform of course because I have 2 lab coats that I already own, right, can't use them. You need at lease 2 uniforms that 2 shirts and 2 pants about 140 dollars ok. After that your required to buy a name badge that 12 dollars not to bad either. ok you are required to have a stethoscope that must be at least a littchman classic 2 or better, luckily my sister is a veterinarian and she gave me her old one thats about 160 dollars I didn't have to pay yay me! White shoes cost my cheap ass 20 dollars at Walmart they had to be all white leather, you also need your own Blood pressure cuff forceps and pen light all of which I have from my job. In order to upload all of your medical records and such you have to buy access to castle branch which costs just under 100 dollars that also pays for your drug test and background check. That doesn't however includes co-pays, mine are 15 dollars a visit I've been to 2 Dr app thats 30 dollars. In order to use the lab you must buy your own lab kit from the designated lab kit website thats another 79 dollars..... none of your lab stuff is provided. You need CPR I have that so I didn't need to pay for that either. Not to mention all of the notebooks and markers folder and such that you need on a regular basis. I also found out that when you do your clinicals a lot of the places make you pay to park so add about 50 dollars a semester on top of everything I just said.
School hasn't even started and I'm already feeling overwhelmed, all I see is dollars signs and the clock ticking.
Let start off by saying tuition is going to cost about 2500 dollars a semester which I guess isn't horrible considering, I'm on a payment plan thats 355 dollars a month. The program requires 12 books that range in price from 20ish dollars to about 130 dollars so I'd say about 1500 dollars for books, I expected that to be honest. What they don't tell you is all the shit they make you buy before you even start the program.... like lots of extra crap.
First day out of the first orientation you have to buy your uniforms from a certain place and you need a lab coat that also must be purchased where you get a uniform of course because I have 2 lab coats that I already own, right, can't use them. You need at lease 2 uniforms that 2 shirts and 2 pants about 140 dollars ok. After that your required to buy a name badge that 12 dollars not to bad either. ok you are required to have a stethoscope that must be at least a littchman classic 2 or better, luckily my sister is a veterinarian and she gave me her old one thats about 160 dollars I didn't have to pay yay me! White shoes cost my cheap ass 20 dollars at Walmart they had to be all white leather, you also need your own Blood pressure cuff forceps and pen light all of which I have from my job. In order to upload all of your medical records and such you have to buy access to castle branch which costs just under 100 dollars that also pays for your drug test and background check. That doesn't however includes co-pays, mine are 15 dollars a visit I've been to 2 Dr app thats 30 dollars. In order to use the lab you must buy your own lab kit from the designated lab kit website thats another 79 dollars..... none of your lab stuff is provided. You need CPR I have that so I didn't need to pay for that either. Not to mention all of the notebooks and markers folder and such that you need on a regular basis. I also found out that when you do your clinicals a lot of the places make you pay to park so add about 50 dollars a semester on top of everything I just said.
School hasn't even started and I'm already feeling overwhelmed, all I see is dollars signs and the clock ticking.
33 YOF
Hello my name is Tobie and I'm a 33 year old female attempting to better myself and my family. I have a husband who is a fire fighter for Baltimore county he also a paramedic in Harford county oh and did I mention a Staff SGT in the Air National Guard. I also have 2 children a 10 years old daughter and an 8 year old son. I live in a crappy townhouse in Middle River Maryland and I just got accepted into the nursing program at CCBC and start August 27th.
Today is July 2nd I have already been to one orientation for the program and have most of the stuff finish that is required of me before I start the program things like: physical, vaccinations, health insurance, uniforms, name badges, white shoes, certain personal equipment, and so on. I'm sitting in jury duty today, fun right, trying to finish up some module test that are required for the program as well, fun stuff like HIPPA, sexual harassment training and bloodbourne pathogens so fun on top of fun.
I have to say that I don't think I've always wanted a job in health care but thats the path I've chosen it's scary and I'm not getting any younger and looking around at that first orientation I'm one of the oldest ones in the room which is a little daunting, but like I said not getting any younger. I've been and EMT since I was 17 years old and I mostly worked private ambulance which is boring, slow and very repetitive, this last year I got 2 jobs working 911, it's fast paced never the same and you have to think on your feet. I went to college right out of high school took a couple classes wasn't feeling it so I dropped out in 2005 when I started back up after my kids started school in 2015 I was overwhelmed and didn't think I made the right choice but I stuck with it got all As and Bs and applied to the nursing program in the spring of 2018 and was accepted first try. Now I'm freaking out about all the responsibilities I'm going to have over the next 3 years or so. I know that nursing school is going to require a lot of sacrifice and quitting and failing is not an option for me at 33 years old, plus my husband would probably kill me.
I welcome anyone who reads this to join me on a journey of exhaustion, self doubt, learning, and great joy. I probably wont have to time to even blog about it but I'ms going to try.
Today is July 2nd I have already been to one orientation for the program and have most of the stuff finish that is required of me before I start the program things like: physical, vaccinations, health insurance, uniforms, name badges, white shoes, certain personal equipment, and so on. I'm sitting in jury duty today, fun right, trying to finish up some module test that are required for the program as well, fun stuff like HIPPA, sexual harassment training and bloodbourne pathogens so fun on top of fun.
I have to say that I don't think I've always wanted a job in health care but thats the path I've chosen it's scary and I'm not getting any younger and looking around at that first orientation I'm one of the oldest ones in the room which is a little daunting, but like I said not getting any younger. I've been and EMT since I was 17 years old and I mostly worked private ambulance which is boring, slow and very repetitive, this last year I got 2 jobs working 911, it's fast paced never the same and you have to think on your feet. I went to college right out of high school took a couple classes wasn't feeling it so I dropped out in 2005 when I started back up after my kids started school in 2015 I was overwhelmed and didn't think I made the right choice but I stuck with it got all As and Bs and applied to the nursing program in the spring of 2018 and was accepted first try. Now I'm freaking out about all the responsibilities I'm going to have over the next 3 years or so. I know that nursing school is going to require a lot of sacrifice and quitting and failing is not an option for me at 33 years old, plus my husband would probably kill me.
I welcome anyone who reads this to join me on a journey of exhaustion, self doubt, learning, and great joy. I probably wont have to time to even blog about it but I'ms going to try.
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