I have been basically freaking out about school since the moment I received my acceptance letter and before that I was freaking out waiting for my acceptance letter so all in all I've freaking out for about 6 months I don't know how much longer I can do this lol. All I can think of is failing and going through all of this for nothing and if I do pass then I'm going to be freaking out about passing my NCLEX and after that I'm going to be freaking out about finding a job lol. Once I get a job I'm sure I'll freak out about doing a good job or killing someone. I think life is just a bunch of freaking out with some moments of relaxation, mine is usually when I'm sleeping, followed by more freaking out. I don't know what to expect from school I guess, not really knowing how much work it's going to be and then on top of that having kids and a husband and a house plus having to work as well just adds up.
I wonder if I'm freaking out for nothing I mean plenty of people have gone through nursing school with as much on their plate as me right? Are other people in my class freaking out to I'm sure they are right? I'm just going to try to enjoy my freedom while it lasts I guess. I'm pretty sure I have everything done that needs to be done. All my continuing ed stuff is done My uniforms are pressed and hanging I have my shoes. I'm still working on buying books, My cousins wife just finished the program and she is suppose to be dropping off her books to me, of course they're old editions but I'm going to try to make it work for now because I'm broke as a joke and barley hanging on at this point.
I'm starting school August 27th my Husband goes to Fort Drum in NY for the whole second week of school so that should be interesting and then in January he deploying for 3 months so more fun coming my way. I'm very seasoned at holding down the fort while my husband is away so that is really no big but when am I am going to have time to study while I'm holding down said fort I'm not sure but I just have to women up and get it done I guess.
I'm hopping that there is someone in my class that is going through the same thing as me and we can kind of lean on each other for support a single 20 something with no kids isn't going to understand what I'm going through.
I hope that I can handle all the pressure that school is going to bring on me I mean the job I'm trying to go for is a pretty stressful job so I should be able to handle it right?
